I've stared at a blank page for the last hour trying to figure out how to get all the clutter in my head onto the sheet. After a full day of work, it's hard to decompress, create, and write. Now, I'm not complaining, just sharing what's in my heart or head—maybe a little of both, but I'm finding it more-and-more difficult to gather my thoughts.
We're finally in Fall, and after a Summer that didn't go as planned, I'm ready to do something different, craving something different, and I'm not sure what that is, but I know it's change. For a little while, I've felt uneasy about my career and the direction it's going. I've worked [really] hard to get to this point, and I have to remind myself to stay in a place of gratitude—to be thankful for where I am, while I work on where I want to be. I'm in a space of wanting more, but not knowing exactly how to get there. It's easy to say; "you create the life you want," and yes I believe that, but there are moments when everything feels like a fog and I'm just going through the motions of the day.
I know a lot of the stress and uneasiness comes from not doing what I'm called to do. I once felt my 9-5 career was my passion, the place I felt at home, and I can admit today, it no longer serves me other than being an investment towards other goals.
Wanting more is a good problem to have. We should want to grow and expand our lives, but I'm finding my desire to want more is what's also keeping me stagnant and complacent in my current situation. But here's the thing, change doesn't happen overnight—you work at it, slowly chipping away at it by consistently doing the work, and shifting until it feels right. Even with all of this, I wonder why it's taking me so long to make the changes and adjustments I need to get to the next level.
Maybe it's fear? Procrastination to avoid success? Uncertainty?
Probably all of the above, but I know change is needed because it's affecting my happiness and desire to continue pushing myself to create—the one thing I do enjoy.
The change I'm craving is in my hands; I hold the keys and tools to pivot towards the direction I want everything to go, and so do you. Continue to Live Your Life in Style and always Be Inspired.